Monday, February 7, 2011
Seeing the Big Picture
With every thing that has gone on lately I have been thinking a lot about the next couple months and what we are going to do. But I have to remember that what I want might not be what I need right now. I dont get to choose what happens in my life so I am going to work on relying on the my Heavenly Father to help Jared and I make the right decisions. Because I don't know what Heavenly Father has in store for us, but I know he loves us and cares about. So from now on I am just planning on being surprised by my life, hopefully pleasantly surprised.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Our Infertility Journey
The last three years of our lives have been the best and the most challenging. We have made so many memories most of them good some of them bad but both have brought Jared and I closer together.
We started trying to have children two years ago. A couple months after we started I went to see the doctor where I found out that I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. I was devastated because I have always wanted to be a mom and the thought of something being wrong with me terrifying.
We started seeing a gynecologist, who put us on a clomid regiment. After about 6 months with no pregnancy she recommened we see a fertility specialist. We were very hopeful about the specialist but worried because none of the cost would be covered by our insurance. We were very blessed to have been able to save up money while living rent free for a year and a half thanks to Jared's grandparents.
So after having a test to make sure my filopian tubes were clear we started seeing the specialist. We decided with the doctor that we would do a procedure called IUI or Inter Uteran Incemination. They seemed very hopeful that I would be pregnant within the first few tries.
The process for me was much more difficult than I would ever had imagined it would be. I would take clomid in order to help my eggs mature but that was never enough so I had to start doing injectables, sometimes up to six per cycle. Then I would take an HCG shot to help release the egg. The next day we would go in and Jareds sample would be inserted into my cervix.
We were so excited to hear the results the first time and then as we went on and the results were always negative our anxiety levels went up. I wanted it so bad that I would feel sick and convince myself that it was morning sickness.
About a week ago we did our fifth out of 6 IUIs. Two days after the procedure I started to have severe pelvic and back pains so Jared and I went to the ER. They said that my ovaries were over stimulated so they were swollen and very sensative.
We have the option to do one more IUI but we are on the fence about it because what happened to my body. After IUI those who can afford it move onto IVF. We have decided to not do IVF.
Adoption has been an option that we have talked about quite a bit. I feel that maybe I haven't been able to get pregnant because there is a baby out there that we are meant to have. I know that we will be parents one way or another, and even though it has been hard it has brought Jared and I so much closer together. We have gotten to spend so much time together that we wouldn't have had if we had had a baby already. We have very supportive families that love us so much. I am so grateful for all my blessing that I already have and through these times I think I have gained a lot of patience.
We started trying to have children two years ago. A couple months after we started I went to see the doctor where I found out that I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. I was devastated because I have always wanted to be a mom and the thought of something being wrong with me terrifying.
We started seeing a gynecologist, who put us on a clomid regiment. After about 6 months with no pregnancy she recommened we see a fertility specialist. We were very hopeful about the specialist but worried because none of the cost would be covered by our insurance. We were very blessed to have been able to save up money while living rent free for a year and a half thanks to Jared's grandparents.
So after having a test to make sure my filopian tubes were clear we started seeing the specialist. We decided with the doctor that we would do a procedure called IUI or Inter Uteran Incemination. They seemed very hopeful that I would be pregnant within the first few tries.
The process for me was much more difficult than I would ever had imagined it would be. I would take clomid in order to help my eggs mature but that was never enough so I had to start doing injectables, sometimes up to six per cycle. Then I would take an HCG shot to help release the egg. The next day we would go in and Jareds sample would be inserted into my cervix.
We were so excited to hear the results the first time and then as we went on and the results were always negative our anxiety levels went up. I wanted it so bad that I would feel sick and convince myself that it was morning sickness.
About a week ago we did our fifth out of 6 IUIs. Two days after the procedure I started to have severe pelvic and back pains so Jared and I went to the ER. They said that my ovaries were over stimulated so they were swollen and very sensative.
We have the option to do one more IUI but we are on the fence about it because what happened to my body. After IUI those who can afford it move onto IVF. We have decided to not do IVF.
Adoption has been an option that we have talked about quite a bit. I feel that maybe I haven't been able to get pregnant because there is a baby out there that we are meant to have. I know that we will be parents one way or another, and even though it has been hard it has brought Jared and I so much closer together. We have gotten to spend so much time together that we wouldn't have had if we had had a baby already. We have very supportive families that love us so much. I am so grateful for all my blessing that I already have and through these times I think I have gained a lot of patience.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Our New House!
At the end of March we signed the papers for our cute little townhouse in American Fork. After two weeks of cleaning, scraping wallpaper, tiling, and painting we moved in. We had a lot of help from family and friends with all the work. We made a lot of memories working together on our little home.
Family room before. Lots of ugly wallpaper
Family room after. My mom came and helped me decorate. We had a great time.
Our cute new couches
Bedroom before. White walls and yellow wood trim, lovely.
Our bedroom after, a calming blue color with black furniture.
Kitchen before
the kitchen with blue tile wallpaper
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Welcome to our blog! This is Jared here, I assume Kenzie will do most of the blogging but I will occasionally come on here and party harty! Here is one of the first pictures of us taken together I do believe. Im not sure where the first one is, which was on the day of my brother Bryan's wedding when Kenzie and I hooked up again (long story) and we decided to start dating! We started dating December 1st, 2007 and dated for about a month before we got engaged...
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